i haven’t gone more than a couple days without drawing/painting something since grade 10.. actually since i can remember.. i have pictures still from when i was in grade 3 haha.. but just realize i haven’t even touched my sketchbooks since October.  

i’ve just been so worn out.. now i feel like i’ve wasted all that time. i must have been so tired.. i don’t get it. i used to sit for hours every day and stay up until early morning because i didn’t want to put my pencil down - even when i had to wake up at 6 the next day.

i also haven’t picked up my guitar or played the piano for months. or cooked or baked anything special like i used to all the time. i just haven’t had the energy or motivation. its like i just gave up trying.. like i’ve been a zombie for the past few months just doing shit i had to and not thinking about it or enjoying life. it was just: get up, go to work, come home, go to sleep. and occasionally buy groceries. its so weird to think about..

i don’t know what happened. but fuck it, i’m going to pretend like i never stopped

and i’m starting a new project today. (: